God is a pretty big God. He is big enough to hear whatever is on our hearts. It really does no one any good to have pretense with God. The psalmist initially thought he had to hold back in speaking with God: “I was mute and silent; I held my peace to no avail, and my distress grew worse. My heart became hot within me. As I mused, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue….” The psalmist goes on to speak openly and honestly to God about what was really on his heart and mind.
Sometimes we might get the mistaken notion that we need to be guarded with God – that somehow we should treat him like we do with other people – coy, hesitant, keeping a respectable distance in conversation. Maybe that ought to happen sometimes with other people, but it is silly to approach God in such a manner. With God, we ought to be brutally honest about how we are really doing and how we are actually feeling. God is not going to move mountains for us if we aren’t willing to admit there is one right in front of our faces.
I’m quite sure that God has literally heard it all from people in the long millennia of human existence. He isn’t going to be surprised by any of our thoughts and words. So, why hide them? It may be a radical thought to say that we can say anything to God and express our deepest emotions to him, but it is nonetheless true. God wants to help us move along in this pilgrimage of faith we are on, but he will only do so if we are up front with him about our current location.
God of the Ages, you are above all and know all things. Hear my prayer, O LORD, and give ear to my cry; hold not your peace at my tears! I am a sojourner with you, a guest, like all my forefathers. Look away from me, that I may smile again, before I depart and am no more! My hope is in you; without your abiding presence I am nothing. Come, Lord Jesus, come. Amen.