What Are You Searching For? (1 Samuel 9:15-27)

Now the day before Saul came, the Lord had revealed to Samuel: “Tomorrow about this time I will send to you a man from the land of Benjamin, and you shall anoint him to be ruler over my people Israel. He shall save my people from the hand of the Philistines, for I have seen the suffering of my people, because their outcry has come to me.” 

When Samuel saw Saul, the Lord told him, “Here is the man of whom I spoke to you. He it is who shall rule over my people.” Then Saul approached Samuel inside the gate and said, “Tell me, please, where is the house of the seer?” 

Samuel answered Saul, “I am the seer; go up before me to the shrine, for today you shall eat with me, and in the morning I will let you go and will tell you all that is on your mind. As for your donkeys that were lost three days ago, give no further thought to them, for they have been found. And on whom is all Israel’s desire fixed, if not on you and on all your ancestral house?” 

Saul answered, “I am only a Benjaminite, from the least of the tribes of Israel, and my family is the humblest of all the families of the tribe of Benjamin. Why then have you spoken to me in this way?”

Then Samuel took Saul and the young man and brought them into the hall and gave them a place at the head of those who had been invited, of whom there were about thirty. And Samuel said to the cook, “Bring the portion I gave you, the one I asked you to put aside.” The cook took up the upper thigh and set it before Saul. Samuel said, “See, what was reserved is set before you. Eat, for it was kept for you for this appointed time, so that you might eat with the guests.”

So Saul ate with Samuel that day. When they came down from the shrine into the town, a bed was spread for Saul on the roof, and he lay down to sleep. Then at the break of dawn Samuel called to Saul upon the roof, “Get up, so that I may send you on your way.” Saul got up, and both he and Samuel went out into the street.

As they were going down to the outskirts of the town, Samuel said to Saul, “Tell the young man to go on before us, and when he has passed on, stop here yourself for a while, that I may make known to you the word of God.” (New Revised Standard Version)

There are many times in our lives when we are on a quest for something that is lost. Saul was on a mission to find some lost donkeys. But, all along, there was a much larger quest taking place; God was on a quest to find a leader for Israel. Saul was wandering and looking for donkeys; he tried to find the “seer” (Samuel) in order to find the animals. He found, however, that he himself was the object of a bigger search.

I wonder how often we look and seek and turn over every rock in order to find something, only to discover that we had the thing all along. And if we were to look a bit deeper into ourselves, I believe we would find that we already have what we need.

We search for an answer, seek for a person who can lead us where we want to be, or go on a quest to find the something, or that someone, which will satisfy our longing for peace, normalcy, or at least, a smidge of relief. Yet, we just might be on the wrong search.

If spiritual guidance is what we want, then what, precisely, do we need? What exactly is it which requires help? We may end up looking like a jack ass, simply because we are searching for one.

In contrast to Saul’s blind searching, Samuel sits patiently and waits, knowing exactly who he’s watching for.

Even though Samuel, as the mouthpiece of God, had warned the people against asking for king, the people still demanded one. Yet, God was flexible and moved with the will of the people. And Samuel trusted the Lord and moved with God. None of this, however, negated the situation of the people’s misguided stubbornness.

The Lord takes our human decision-making, responsibility, and accountability seriously. So, we too, are to weigh our decisions carefully so that they are consistent with good purposes. And when things go sideways, we are to own up to our decisions and actions (or inactions).

Throughout the story, even though Saul looks impressive, he is continually clueless to everything going on. He isn’t aware that the donkeys have been found. He doesn’t know where to look for the seer, and that the seer is Samuel. He isn’t aware of why he is being invited to a feast. Saul was clueless that he was being chosen for a task.

To be unaware is to be driven by the forces within us which we do not recognize. Yet, conversely, to be aware is to have the conscious power of choices; we can choose one path over another because we have awareness of where those paths lead, as well as what is going on inside of us. In other words, we can make decisions wisely with awareness of self, others, and the world.

Saul had none of this awareness. And as his story unfolds throughout the rest of the book of 1 Samuel, we can observe how much he seems out of control and disconnected from himself, others, and the situations around him.

One of things which inevitably results from a lack of self-awareness, is impatience. The life of Saul, as we shall see, is marked by having ants-in-his-pants; he had a hard time waiting. The introduction we have of Saul in today’s story begins to clue us in on the fact that he actively searches for dumb animals, intimating that he himself may not be the brightest bulb in Israel.

Samuel, however, is self-aware, and thus, patient. He is able to wait, and does not give into any anxiety to do differently. Samuel’s quest for humility, wisdom, and knowledge of God helped him become aware and confident.

Which character do you most relate to, Samuel, or Saul? Why? In what ways might you gain a greater awareness of yourself, others in your life, and your circumstances? How might you develop a better awareness of the divine?

Most of all, what is it that you are truly searching for?

Blessed God, help me to see myself and my life through your unconditional love and acceptance of me so that your love and power can flow in and through me. Help me to remember that nothing can separate me from your love. Amen.

Who Do You Look To When Things Are Tough? (1 Samuel 9:1-14)

There was a Benjamite, a man of standing, whose name was Kish son of Abiel, the son of Zeror, the son of Bekorath, the son of Aphiah of Benjamin. Kish had a son named Saul, as handsome a young man as could be found anywhere in Israel, and he was a head taller than anyone else.

Now the donkeys belonging to Saul’s father Kish were lost, and Kish said to his son Saul, “Take one of the servants with you and go and look for the donkeys.” So he passed through the hill country of Ephraim and through the area around Shalisha, but they did not find them. They went on into the district of Shaalim, but the donkeys were not there. Then he passed through the territory of Benjamin, but they did not find them.

When they reached the district of Zuph, Saul said to the servant who was with him, “Come, let’s go back, or my father will stop thinking about the donkeys and start worrying about us.”

But the servant replied, “Look, in this town there is a man of God; he is highly respected, and everything he says comes true. Let’s go there now. Perhaps he will tell us what way to take.”

Saul said to his servant, “If we go, what can we give the man? The food in our sacks is gone. We have no gift to take to the man of God. What do we have?”

The servant answered him again. “Look,” he said, “I have a quarter of a shekel of silver. I will give it to the man of God so that he will tell us what way to take.” (Formerly in Israel, if someone went to inquire of God, they would say, “Come, let us go to the seer,” because the prophet of today used to be called a seer.)

“Good,” Saul said to his servant. “Come, let’s go.” So they set out for the town where the man of God was.

As they were going up the hill to the town, they met some young women coming out to draw water, and they asked them, “Is the seer here?”

“He is,” they answered. “He’s ahead of you. Hurry now; he has just come to our town today, for the people have a sacrifice at the high place. As soon as you enter the town, you will find him before he goes up to the high place to eat. The people will not begin eating until he comes, because he must bless the sacrifice; afterward, those who are invited will eat. Go up now; you should find him about this time.”

They went up to the town, and as they were entering it, there was Samuel, coming toward them on his way up to the high place. (New International Version)

“He who seeking asses, found a kingdom.”

John Milton, Paradise Regained

We are introduced to Saul, who eventually became the infamous first king of Israel. And he is described in almost a kingly sort of tone; his stature and pedigree are impressive. Saul looks the part of someone who could be important, do things, and go places.

Samuel and Saul, by Dutch painter Claes Moeyaert (1592-1655)

In today’s story, we find Saul to be an obedient and responsible son, going out to find some lost donkeys. By all appearances, Saul was an upright, law-abiding, faithful Jew from the tribe of Benjamin. However, appearances can be rather deceitful. The outward presentation of someone is not always congruent with what is on the inside; and vice versa.

These were the days when Samuel the priest would make a circuit through the country. He made regular rounds as Israel’s judge. Saul and Samuel would encounter each other in a divine appointment. The contrast between the two of them would become ever more pronounced and obvious. But to the point at hand, Saul was simply out looking for some lost animals.

At that time, Israel was facing yet another Philistine military threat. The Philistines were not indigenous to Palestine. The Egyptians referred to them as “sea people;” they originally came from somewhere around the Aegean Sea area and settled in Canaan along the coastal plain between Gaza and Jaffa.

The Philistines expanded their territory, which continually put them at odds with Israel their neighbor. Militarily, the Israelites looked like bumpkins compared to the Philistines – who were skilled warriors with state of the art weapons.

Israel had no king. Instead, they were led by a series of judges who gave rulings throughout the land. Samuel was the last of them because the Israelite tribes determined and demanded that they must have a king in order to face the Philistine threat. (1 Samuel 8:1-21)

Samuel wisely perceived that asking for a king was not going to go well for the people. And he had warned them appropriately. Yet, Israel persisted in wanting to be like all the other nations in having a king to lead an army and fight Israel’s battles.

Although the people loved and appreciated the priest and prophet Samuel, his leadership was regarded as insufficient for the constant anxiety of dealing with the Philistines. It seems the people did not realize or consider what they were asking for, because they got it, and it wasn’t always victory and celebration.

If Israel wanted a king – and someone who looked the part – then that is exactly what they would receive. Saul was tall, strong, and seemed qualified to wage war on the pesky Philistines. Frankly, Saul was a putz who lacked the internal character needed to govern God’s people and ensure God’s will would be done in Israel.

But, again, I get ahead of myself. Reading the account of Saul for the first time, it’s easy for one to not see the signs of a coming personal implosion of the soul.

Sometimes whenever circumstances have been challenging for so long, and difficulty just keeps showing up, we begin to lose our good judgment and start wanting easy solutions for complex problems. And that is what I believe happened to Israel.

The Israelites got tired of the constant Philistine threat – to the point of believing that the grass is greener on the other side of the fence. They thought they needed a king and that everything would be better. And initially it was. But, over the long haul, it proved to be fatal.

For us today, it is good to remember that sound self-discipline through proven spiritual practices, and development of the soul by means of humility, patience, and wisdom, accomplish what is most needed in life.

Becoming weary and tired, we may slowly lose faith. Yet, the ability to persevere, stay the course, and listen well to wise people, can begin to erode and decay through the discouragement of constant adversity.

There is, however, a way to keep going when things are hard. Encourage one another daily. Avoid a critical spirit which drains the energy from others. Be careful who you listen to and take advice from. Become ever more familiar with Holy Scripture and that which is right, just, and good. Rely upon the Lord.

Living a faithful and devoted life to the divine covenant, instead succumbing to human culture, may not be easy; but it will serve us well in the long run.

Father of mercy, alone we have no power in ourselves to help ourselves. When we are discouraged by our weakness, strengthen us to follow Christ, our pattern and our hope; who lives and reigns with you and the Holy Spirit, one God, now and forever. Amen.